I Hate Sombody Too

Kudos to anyone who gets the song reference....

Anyway, to date I had avoided obvious references to anything that is me, because I have pictures of me and no real attempt to hide who I am, as such anyone who knows me theoretically could find this... realistically, the only people who actually know who I am will only find this by links I have provided....

as such, I really don't care anymore....

I want to rant with no regard for responsibility or interest in anybody else's opinion of this... I'm feeling reckless and irresponsible... in short, I'm pissed off....

I feel for the sake of anyone actually still reading at this point I ought to fill in some background information so my pointless ranting makes some semblance of sense....

In my first senior year- of which I had two owning to my general apathy to all things public education- My father was arrested, given unreasonable bail amounts- that is to say as good as denied bail despite being an obvious non-flight risk (for gods sake a lawyer told him up front before charges were formally pressed he was fucked and might as well skip out then- and he didn't...), as such soon after, lacking dad's income we had to sell the house and move- initially to my father's parents- and eventually again to my mother parents... where I graduated finally... and began college as was the plan, and my main reason for disinterest in High School- really I was a college boy before I even enrolled... in many ways at least... I only wanted the diploma instead of a GED as a formality... (irony, though the GED takes more work, the Diploma is more respected..)

and things were fine- until my uncle, who generally fucked his own life up- got dumped by his fourth wife because he was busted for illegal drug use, and lost his nursing licence... and eventually after a few more shitty twists and turns in his life that of course were all his own dumbshit fault (clarification- he his highly intelligent, his just plain ignorant, see earlier rants if you don't know the difference...), and he ends up moving in with my grandmother too... who by now, is living with her handicapped son because the other son who said son had been living with, had died, in fact by now her husband was also dead... so, a house built with two handicapped people in mind, now housing five- including myself who was not there good portions of the year away at college...

I think that's enough background for now- this year I wasn't able to enroll in college again due to the fact I'm in debt up my ass... my own fault of course- but I'm working on it...

my mother is of course, lazier than I, where else would I have learned it, she has on occasion dubbed herself 'Queen of Excuses'....

That doesn't excuse my uncle for his inability to be a reasonable human being...

He does not seem to appreciate his situation... he's plumb fucked himself and is lucky his has family willing to cover his lousy ass and put up with his arrogant shit... he wants respect... I tried that- I got nothing for it, and now all he's earned from me is my discontent and rage... he's lucky all he gets from me is passive indifference, and the world is lucky I couldn't harm a living soul.... it's just not in me to be anything worse than a passive aggressive backstabber...

this is the short version rather than the rant I had in mind before I did all my other errands today like a somewhat responsible person....

I hope this promotion I might be getting gets me off graveyard shift... staying up past 6am murders my sleep cycle, especially since I have to try and live some semblance of an otherwise normal hours life on my days off...